Goodbye 2011

Last year at this time I was dreading 2011.

My gut was telling me that it was going to be an emotional year and it was going to be rough. 2011 was going to kick my ass, trying my patience, and emotions. As a matter of fact, I rolled in the New Year by falling asleep before 10pm, wishing I could freeze time. I celebrated it the typical "Balls Out Thermos New Years" style.

However, I couldn't have been more wrong. I learned my lesson that my gut isn't always right.

2011 was by far the best year I've ever had. Looking back it was a year of firsts.

It was the first time I truly felt loved by someone. It was the first time I felt like I had a partner in crime. It was the first time that I saw love in someone's eyes and I felt it through every part of my soul. It was the first time I felt I could do anything. Thank you Erik.

It was the first time I held Roark. It was the first time I held Roark's hand. It was the first time I heard Roark cry. It was the first time I saw Roark's smile and heard his gobbled attempt to laugh.

It was the first time I felt the closest to my parent's in years. We have always been close, and maybe I've taken their love and support for granted, for that I'm sorry. Their support this year was tremendous. I will never forget the greatest compliment I ever received from my father regarding my skills as a mother.

It was the first time I met my niece Lu Li. It was the first time I got to witness Mei Li take on the responsibility of being a big sister, which she did and continues to do an excellent job.

It was the first time I really stopped to smell the roses. To take the time to relish in the small gifts that life gives you on a daily basis. From laughing with friends and family, to the quiet 2am feedings of Roark, life is beautiful. Take nothing for granted, find happiness everywhere, and feel loved always.

Also, 2011 was a very busy year.

I met Erik, got engaged, got pregnant, started a new job, planned a wedding, had a wedding, and had a baby.

By far, 2011 was the best year ever. I'm hesitant to say I'm looking forward to 2012, my gut isn't telling me good or bad, but then again...my gut isn't always right.

So it is with fond memories and a heavy heart, I bid adieu to 2011 and welcome the adventures to come.